As 2016 comes to a close, I thought about doing a post about all of these wonderful lessons I’ve learned in 2016 and how I plan to apply them in 2017. But that would be bullshit. That would be me stroking my ego, making it seem like everything is peaches and cream in life and in my brand when it simply is NOT. I want to be REAL with you all, I want to be authentic.
This morning I was listening to The Lively Show Podcast, where she spoke about things that she was afraid to tell her audience as well. I could almost hear the release in her voice after letting it all go, after letting them know that she wasn’t perfect and what she’s been struggling with in life an business. I feel like the world needs a little more of that, rather than the ‘Hey look at how I became successful and you can too’ bullshit. This is real life, we are ALL struggling with A LOT in one way or another. We need to share our struggles just as much as we do our wins. The world needs that balance… So with that being said…here it is:
I Don’t Have It All Together
I’m an extremely motivational person. I feel like if you have a dream then, by all means, you should work on achieving that dream. However, that’s not to say that it will be easy. And to be completely honest, building this brand has been HARD. A lot of the times I’ve felt stuck and not able to move past certain obstacles. I’ve had a lot of goals and plans for 2016 that I was not able to see all the way through. With that being said, I just do NOT have it all together. And I’ve slowly but surely become okay with that, simply because the last thing I want to do is build a brand that places me, or my ego I should say on a pedestal to the point my target audience feels as if they can’t reach me. Life is all about growth, messing up and learning from it. In 2016, I ave finally made peace with the fact that I’m not where I want to be, and that some days I’m not as sure of myself as I am in others. Learning to grow and flow with the different dynamics of life are essential aspects that have helped me to be me.
I’m Much More In Tune To Spirituality and Energy Than I’d Like To Admit
Most people know that I come from a church home, this is strongly where my background and faith come from. However, after going through my own trials and tribulations, it has forced me not to only cling to my relationship with God, but to discover different aspects of energies that can help keep me centered. I’ve delved more into meditation, crystals and believing in the power of The Universe. I’ve been afraid to ‘put this out there’ because I’ve noticed that people see believing in The Universe as not believing in God. However, I see it as just the opposite: Because I believe in God who created The Universe, I am open to learn any and everything I can about it, because it was not just put here as a ‘placeholder’ for humanity. It goes so much deeper than that..I’ve decided to not be close-minded because of my religion or spirituality that I miss my true purpose in life, which I do believe the energies of The Universe are helping me to transpire to.
I’m Having A Hard Time Remaining Consistent
With my blog, with all of my creative ideas, with losing weight, with SO many things. Don’t you hate the feeling of KNOWING what you need to do, but simply just NOT doing it? Whether it be because of underlying circumstances, procrastination, or just being outright LAZY, sometimes it’s hard to find that motivation to see a goal or a project all the way through. I GET IT. I’ve been in this space for a lot longer than I’d like to admit, and I’ve really been digging deep as to WHY this same theme continuously shows up in my life. Again, for this New Years its a resolution I’ve made with myself, that I hope I am coming out on the other end of when I do this same reflection a year from now.
I Struggle With The Idea of Success
We all want to be successful, in SOME way. Whether it be prosperity in overall life, abundance in wealth, or moving up the ranks in our careers: WE WANT TO BE SUCCESSFUL. To dismiss this is doing your body, and frankly, the WORLD a major disservice. As I’ve dug deeper into this concept, wondering why, I realized that it has a lot to do with how I was taught to think about success. My parents have made a pretty great life for themselves. However, when people are living too abundantly, or making outlandish purchases, they express extreme discord for this. Subconsciously, I see that this has taught me to almost be AFRAID of being successful, which is why success has not freely flown to me as it has to others. Just in this last quarter of 2016, I have began shifting my focus and constantly reminding myself that it is OKAY to be successful, it is OKAY to want a certain amount in business. And not only is it okay, but that I actually DESERVE it. My ego, on the other hand makes me feel as if I want success for ulterior motives. But my intuition tells me that life will be lived more abundantly and adventurous once I do obtain this level of success. It is a constant battle, but I know in the end I will come out victorious. Pray for me as I shift my mindset on this going into 2017!
I’m Just Wingin’ It
As some of you may know, I started this blog as a creative outlet. I’m not a writer, I didn’t go to school for journalism or anything of the sort, however I do thoroughly enjoy writing. I enjoy putting my thoughts out into the world as a release and therapy of some sorts and this blog 100% has to do with letting my creative juices flow. At times, I do feel like the Roze Gold brand in general is all over the place, and more times than not I have thought about just deleting it and taking time off to truly figure out what I want this to be. But I’ve learned that there are no mistakes when building your own brand, if you have something that resonates with you and who you are, that can be beneficial to others. Why would you NOT share it? I’m working on becoming concrete with Roze Gold’s brand and being more consistent, one day at a time. Not stressing about what’s to come years from now.
Thank you ALL so MUCH for supporting me. Whether it be sharing my blog with a friend or family, sending me words of encouragement or just overall good vibes. I am excited for 2017 and even more excited to close out 2016. I feel a lot better after getting this off of my chest, and I am looking forward to carrying a lighter load into the New Year.